• Rather unusually, a second entry for today

    Close-up photograph of an open sketchbook spread resting on a bed. A large self-portrait fills most of the left page, showing a bald man with round glasses, moustache and beard, drawn in fine black lines. A broad grey crayon shape surrounds the head, and the shirt is filled with bright orange crayon. The right page contains drawings of the objects beside the bed, including an orange Stanley mug, a teapot, a spoon and a patterned tray. Across the upper right is a block of green with the handwritten words, “Listening to ‘The Infinite Sadness of Small Appliances’,” and the date 23-9-26. A round mirror and orange mug are partly visible above the sketchbook.

    Real tea and an audiobook kept me drawing until the sun came up.

    Now I’ve let the chickens out and had some breakfast, I think I’m going to have a nap — possibly quite a long one.

    I wonder why I feel embarrassed posting this drawing here…

  • Instagram and drawing at 4.00 am

    I’m not sure if this is the start of the day or just an interlude between sleeps, so I’m hedging my bets and drinking decaffeinated tea.

    Yesterday Cathryn described Neocolor IIs as “friendly”. I feel the need for some friendliness in the very dark morning — it feels especially dark this morning; I wonder where the moon is in its cycle — so I’m drawing myself with a red crayon and enjoying its soft waxiness.

    This book caught my eye on Instagram. Do I really need more artists’ journals to read? I have Keith Vaughan and Derek Jarman waiting for me by my bed. Tove Jansson’s letters have been calling to me. But this does look interesting: paintings, reproduced journal pages and scraps of notes. Right up my street.

    I think I might just accept that the day has begun and make a pot of real tea…

  • Eager to draw

    Close-up photograph of a self-portrait on a small sketchbook page. The face is drawn in dark blue Neocolor II crayon with large round glasses, a bald head, moustache and beard, and one eye looking slightly upwards. Dense blue crayon fills much of the background around the head, with rough, textured marks left visible. At the top are the handwritten time “5.00 am” and date “22-9-26”. Down the right-hand side, in black ink lettering, are the words “LOOKING FORWARD TO MY TEA”. A black pen and blue Neocolor II crayon lie beside the drawing on the red-and-white patterned sketchbook.

    After seeing my friend Cathryn’s Selfietember drawing yesterday which she drew with a Neocolor II, I knew that I wanted to try the same for my morning drawing today.

    I woke up excited to draw (is that a new feeling?), made my tea, put food down for the cats and came back to bed and started to draw before I poured out my tea.

    Photograph of an early-morning drawing setup on a bed. A small self-portrait sketchbook page rests on top of a larger red-and-white patterned sketchbook, with a round mirror, striped ceramic jug and drawing materials nearby. In the mirror, the artist’s face, round glasses and yellow-cased phone are reflected. The self-portrait is drawn in deep blue Neocolor II crayon, with bold glasses, facial features and a dark blue area around the head. Handwritten notes include “5.00 am”, the date “22-9-26” and, written in ink down the right-hand side, “LOOKING FORWARD TO MY TEA”.

  • Selfietember Day #21

    View of my morning drawing set-up on the bed. An open pocket sketchbook rests on a red-and-white patterned cover of a second sketchbook, showing a self-portrait drawn across the spread in loose dark reddish-brown lines over a pale cobalt-blue wash. The portrait shows my bald head, large round glasses, short beard and moustache, with the eyes looking slightly upwards. A pale blue Neocolor II crayon and dark watercolour pencil lie beside the sketchbook. At the upper left, a round mirror reflects my face; nearby are a small white light, a folded piece of printed text, a blue-and-white checked cloth and an orange mug of tea.

    A calmer, later morning drawing today. I was awake for a few hours in the night, so it was about 6.30 by the time I made my tea, came back to bed and picked up my sketchbook.

    The light in the window behind my head was noticeably brighter this morning, so I put down a wash of Neocolor II Cobalt Blue 5% first, then drew over it with a Caran d’Ache Museum Aquarelle watercolour pencil in Carmine Lake.

    No deep questioning or mysterious symbolic mark-making today. Just tea, a mirror and a morning self-portrait.

    Close-up photograph of a self-portrait drawn across an open spread in a small pocket sketchbook. The face is outlined loosely in dark reddish-brown watercolour pencil, with large round glasses, a bald head, short beard and moustache, and the eyes looking slightly upwards. A pale wash of cobalt blue fills much of the background around the head, leaving the face mostly white. The drawing is dated 21-9-26 at the bottom right. The sketchbook rests on the red-and-white patterned cover of a second sketchbook, with a pale blue Neocolor II crayon and a dark watercolour pencil lying alongside it..
  • This is the wonky messy artist I am

    A small open pocket sketchbook lies on a blue, cream and rust crocheted blanket. Across the two pages is a loose self-portrait drawn in black, blue and grey-beige: a bald head, large blue-framed glasses, dark eyes, a lightly suggested beard and moustache, and blue marks indicating a T-shirt. A rough black block fills part of the background behind the head, and a brown tea splash has stained the top of the drawing. The date 20-9-26 is written along the bottom edge. To the left are an open tin of Caran d’Ache Neocolor II crayons and a fabric pencil case filled with drawing materials. Above the sketchbook is a round wooden-framed mirror propped on the bed; in it, my face and glasses are reflected as I hold up a yellow phone to take the photograph.

    This morning I woke thinking about the kind of space I seem to have been craving around my drawing.

    A place where I can turn up as I am.

    Where I can draw what I like, with what I like.

    Where I can be serious and playful, thoughtful and impulsive, ambitious and tired.

    Where growth doesn’t mean becoming a different sort of artist, but giving the artist I already am enough room, attention and company to develop.

    My head was full of these thoughts as I drew this morning. I picked up the wrong pocket sketchbook. I gathered whatever materials were around me and started without much of a plan. I changed tools as I went. A little tea spilt onto the page and became part of the drawing.

    I rather love today’s wonky messy drawing. I want to make lots more wonky messy drawings.

    This is the wonky messy artist I am ❤️🐌

    Close-up of the same self-portrait filling most of the open pocket sketchbook. The face is loosely drawn with thin black lines, broad blue marks and broken grey-beige strokes. Thick blue glasses dominate the face, with blue added around the eyes and across one shoulder. Grey-beige marks loosely describe the beard, moustache, jaw and side of the face, while a textured black patch sits behind the right side of the head. Near the top of the bald head is a clearly visible brown tea stain, with a darker centre and a paler watery bloom around it. The horizontal join between the two sketchbook pages runs through the middle of the face. At the bottom is the handwritten date, 20-9-26.