Tag: Drawing

  • I still felt like drawing

    Unusually, I still had some energy after my bath this morning…

  • Early morning drawing and pondering

    Awake at silly o’clock again, but with a gloriously unfoggy brain. So I drew and pondered.

    How would it be if I thought of the pages of my pocket sketchbooks as panels in a comic?

    What if I thought of them as landscapes to be explored and photographed — zooming in, reframing them?

    What if I thought of the photographs of the drawings and the drawings themselves as separate things to explore?

    My brain has disappeared into fog again.

    I shall put thinking on hold for another day.

  • Letting myself get used to where I am

    This morning I found myself returning to drawing my tea tray again.

    I wrote:

    Finding comfort in the familiar. I’ve been stretching myself recently. It’s time to stop that for a while and let myself get used to where I am.

    I suspect the biggest stretch last month wouldn’t look like much of a stretch at all to someone looking in: a gentle half-hour chat over Zoom with an artist and educator I admire. But the anticipation of the conversation had left me in a state of anxiety from the moment I arranged it.

    In the end — as the me underneath the anxiety knew it would be — the conversation was very good. Useful, encouraging, and something I think is going to become an important monthly part of my creative life.

    The anxiety beforehand was another matter.

    I’ve recently started using an app called FatigueSense that gives me an allowance of energy points for each day. I usually begin with somewhere around 60. By the time yesterday’s conversation was over, I had eight left, and I was down to zero soon after.

    That feels like quite a clear measure of what anticipation and anxiety can cost me, even when the thing I’m anxious about turns out to be good.

    So this morning it felt important to return to something familiar: the tea tray, the chicken-patterned cloth, the things that are around me every day. Drawing first with the stub of a Blackwing 3, and then reaching for some well-used Neocolor IIs.

    I need plenty more mornings like this in October while I get used to the place all my recent stretching has left me.

  • Not putting my mirror away just yet

    An open small homemade sketchbook rests on top of a much larger red-and-white patterned Fabriano sketchbook. Across the two pages is Michael’s final Selfietember drawing: a black-line self-portrait reflected in a round mirror, alongside his Stanley flask mug and milk jug sitting on his morning tea tray, which is covered with blue chicken-patterned fabric. “Thirty days of drawing myself” is handwritten across the top.

Beside the sketchbook is a small collection of drawing materials, including black and brown pens, pencils, a blue-tipped pencil and an orange pen. Above the drawing, the corner of the actual tray, mug and chicken-covered fabric are visible.

    I feel less bone-deep weary today and even a little celebratory to have reached the thirtieth and final day of Selfietember.

    I’m probably not going to put my mirror away just yet. I’ve been (mostly) enjoying these early-morning encounters with myself over a pot of tea, and I’m not sure I’m quite ready for them to be over.

  • Easier to draw than not to draw

    Early-morning drawing setup on a crocheted blanket. An open sketchbook shows a loose self-portrait in black ink with blocks of red and dark blue Neocolor II. Above it is a round mirror reflecting Michael holding a yellow phone. To the right, a tea tray holds a bright yellow teapot, glasses and a small light. Drawing materials lie beside the sketchbook.

    After feeling so tired yesterday, I went to bed telling myself that I wasn’t going to draw this morning.

    But after waking up at 3.00 am, putting some washing on, feeding a couple of expectant-looking cats and making some tea, I found myself in front of my mirror again, reaching for my lovely red Neocolor II crayon.

    In the end, it was easier to draw than not to draw this morning.

    I’m planning a day mostly in bed to see if I can placate this bone-deep weariness a little.

    Close-up of the finished early-morning self-portrait in an open sketchbook. The face is drawn loosely in black ink, with large round glasses and areas of muted blue across the eyes and face. Bold red fills the background above the head, with dark blue at the right. Three drawing tools rest alongside the page, which is dated 29-9-26 and marked 3:56 am.